#not that i dont love him its just like. gonna be infinitely more awkward if i have to interact with him alone than if i did my other grandp

[sp-ud]

my mom implied my poppa would be here at 11:30, i think.

its almost 11, and my dad is not awake. so im just gonna hope she was wrong, or im remembering what she said wrong.

[jils-things]

hii jil !! for the ask game, if you haven’t already — i’d love to hear even more about jaide, so; 6 & 10? <3

SARA HALLU 🥺🥺🥺🥺💚💚 I APPRECIATE IT!!

6. does your self insert have any pets? Pokemon?

OK SO. YEAH. everything's pretty much explained here!

she caught them all from her encounters as a trainer but for me personally i like to think jaide's actual token pet is to.gepi (she affectionately nicknamed pipino) she only had him recently from an interesting incident :3c she doesn't want to let him battle because she babies him a bit too much 🥺🥺💚

quick run down!

• galla.de (remy) - her partner pokemon! gallade tends to drags her out of danger because shes too reckless 🔥 also funne contrast to jaide stone having a garde.voir 🔥🔥

• blazik.en (chuy) - big shoutout to my friend who big brain'd on this - anyway, kid!red got a torchi.c for kid!jaide before she left for joht.o. a parting gift for her :3

• leafeo.n (vivi) - i dont have much input, but another contrast to jaide stone who has a gla.ceon :3

• ma.ntine - caught in her alol.a trip. the funniest thought I ever had with this is jaide going waterskiing with man.tine pulling her and she's zooming by so quickly and it scares the hell out of red and blue who's just chillin with lap.ras and gya.rados respectively 😭😭😭

• reuni.clus - i only considered adding this one recently so i dont have much input yet! it also looks like a pkmn jaide would have.... i mean look at the face! (i plan to catch one in my new bw2 save hehe)

extra bit - jaide has... A LOT of 'mons, so this is only one set for sure 😭 she could have several sets of teams because shes a catcher and has been to nearly every region at this point! a few pokemons i'd like to mention however are: cin.derace, decidueye, hatenna and sw.ampert 🥹💚

10. how do the other characters feel about your self insert and f/o’s relationship?

holy shit. its the funniest thing istg.

so blue, blue was the guy who managed to bring everyone together after being away from each other for too long. all he wanted was to be with his best buds and thats all. however him slowly getting the hints that red and jaide MMMIIIGHT BE INTO EACH OTHER IS A BIG WHAT THE HELL MOMENT FOR HIM bro wanted reunite with his childhood best friends but childhood best friends are now having MATCHING BRACELETS WHAT ABOUT ME GUYS 🥲🥲🥲 AKDLFKFJS part of him thought this was complete bs because red willingly put himself in mt. silver for years and suddenly he's gonna get a girlfriend before him?!?!?? what!!!!! dude said i pulled a bad bitch by being au- /JJJ

but despite the initial shock i think part of blue is really proud of red because blue knows how socially awkward he is and he's not the best with people - so seeing him at least be with someone he can fully trust and be in love with is certainly a development that he hopes nothing but the best for. i think blue would try his best to help red out too! blue is quite fashionable, can totally see him helping red find a nice outfit for their casual stroll date :D

as for jaide, i think jaide would just constantly send or tell stuff to blue about how cute red is 😭 shes not immune to being so gushy abt her big bf 💔💔 will probably send pics of red sleeping on her lap and shes fuckign crying on pokemessenger or whatever the hell JALSKSJDJJSKA over all blue says yes i approve ☝️

ethan (jaides little brother) would be overjoyed! maybe a little shocked as well because wait a minute 💀 didn't i battle this guy in a seemingly cold place before 💀💀 JAJDJFHSJJD

methinks professor oa.k (who had been with the trio since they were little) is proud. he has quite literally watched these kids grow since they were preteens and seeing where they are today is just infinitely outstanding to him! they're both very smart and strong in their own fields (she's a pro catcher and he's the living legend) and they're still a young couple. lots of potential in those two for sure!

[musigrusi]

Aight this is Pt.2 of my list, enjoy

Part 1

Farah

HABIBI MY SISTERRRR

Will cook Couscous all day every day for her istg

Inshallah may your days be forever blessed and your plans always sucessful

Mashallah

The rEAL kind of Tea Time with pine nuts and everything, fight me

Will probs bicker about different pronounciations, 10/10 tho

I will make use of all the bomb/arab jokes I have been told and rate em with her. Will also make use of my new bomb skills I learned from Soap lol.

Throwing shoe contests

Alex

I feel like he would be the kind to speak arabic with that horrible western accent

Will defo tag team with Farah to make fun of him

Will also console him when he feels bullied

"You're doing great baby, it aint your fault you are linguistically challenged. DW we still love you"

That kind of shit

Will teach him niche curse words and tell him it's a compliment

Will watch from afar how he gets decked by Farah lol

He has a crush on Farah, say what you want. And I will bully him relentlessly about it.

I will, however, be his wingman and tell him all the things she likes/dislikes. Will teach him how to cook and season AND, most importantly, how to evade the flying shoe™

Laswell

MOTHER

I wanna be adopted by her and her wife

Will chase her with adoption papers until they are signed

That is all

Thank you for comming to my TED Talk

Valeria

The love hate of siblings, but make it two sisters.

Don't touch my stuff or I will eat your liver

But also don't touch her or I will eat your liver

Will throw chanclas at her for no reason

I can see her make my blood boil by teasing and annoying me

But I would give that vibe back tenfold

Will start a new rumor abt her and Alejandro every week

Will make and execute plans to lock her and him in a room and shit like that.

Gift her a cool shirt and wait until she wears it comfortably as her PJs before telling her that it's Alejandro's

Will send video footage of her sleeping in it and then her finding out to Alejandro and all of Los Vaqueros

Roach

I don't have too much to go off of him but the mother instincts are tingling

Teach me ASL, this is not a request, thank you

I *will* mother him just as badly as Gaz and Rodolfo, if not more.

Can't handle spice? Blasphemy, but I shall make you a serving with minimal spice.

König

Strap in, this is gonna be a long one

Listen up you Austrian Fuck

Honestly, I feel kinda bad for him because,

If he speaks English, I would have a meltdown over his pronounciation

If he spoke German, I would have a laugh flash over his dialect.

There is no way he could evade my bullying

Constant bickering over whose pronounciation is correct.

Listen you fuckwhipe, it's "Brätzel" with a nice and short ä NOT "BREEEEETZEL" OR WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU CALL IT.

This would all be in good humor

Not

Will bond over mutual hate of English and American"bread" listen, i dont know what bread ever did to offend you so much to lead you down such a dark path of mutilating its recepie but pls come back to the light

Cook off, because I like Austrian dishes and I will bribe him with Maultaschen, Röschti and Fondue.

Will have him speak French for comedy (have you ever heard an Austrian speak French? You are missing out on A-tier commedy my friend)

Mutual agreed silence

The germanic awkwardness is not felt between us.

The 'tism will also be happy, 10/10

Will force it to cuddle

Horrible Schlager and Après-Ski playlists playing on enless loop just to piss him off

Will use increasingly cringey pet names on him

Mausi/Müüsli, Schatzi/Schätzeli, Schnuggeli, Gaggibolle, Pupser, Zuckerschnute, Zimtschnecke/Schnäggli, (Creme)Schnittchen, Spatzi/Späzzli, Schnuggelpupser, Hasi/Hääsli, Bärchen, Entchen

Listen I have an endless list not only in German, but Swiss German too, which is infinitely more cringe fight me

I would not be above using French and Italian terms of endearment either because, do you know how sappy they are? You'll get a stroke just hearing them

Mon bijou, Amore, mon chéri, Caro, mon âme, Tesoro, Chouchou, mon coeur *insert gagging*

Can't rlly curse him out in my dialect since there's a 85% chance he'd understand it all, but also

He could not curse me out in his dialect bc there's an 90% chance I'd understand it all lmao.

Can and will constantly complain that he is TOO DAMN BIG and promptly abuse him for whatever one can use a large strong man for.

Will compliment on said strength and revel in his subsequent shyness over the compliment.

I could see myself be overly agressive with compliments for the sole benefit of turning him beat red or very quiet.

I love Nietsche and Kafka, two german speaking authors that the majority of german speakers hate with a burning passion. Naturally, if he were bed ridden with injury or sickness, I'd read him works of the two to him.

I am such a kind and compassionate friend, am I not?

Anyways that is all lol enjoy

[dunb123]

(head cannons )if infinite darknesses leon and patrick were to fall for each other( my fav ship)

i feel like if they were gonna fall in it would and friends x lovers because after the white housev mission they would become acquaintances to work friends to friends to best friends then lovers

i feel as though when they start to catch feelings they would be in denial for a long ass time then as their friendship grows they would try to give each other hints but the other is too dense to notice the hints so they in their minds they both give up on hints

after months of suppressing their feelings for each other i feel it would only come out ( they don't tell each other feelings because they dont want to ruin there friendships). but as i was saying it would only come out if they got drunk and accidentally blurt it out then immediately regret it or one of them got jealous because the other was hanging out with someone else i also feel when patrick would get jealous he would get upset but keep his jealousy to himself on the other hand leon everyone can tell by his body language his tone his change in mood

there offical first date i feel would be at pat's house they wouldnt do a candle light dinner i feel as they would both prefer to be at home eat chinese or mexican take out watch tv shows or have movie marathons

they both have DEFINITELY love to build lego sets and have a seperate shelf after they build there sets they put it on the shelf

there first kiss would be awkward like leading up would be awkard because i feel patrick would be super nervous would have butterflies and then leon being the confident guy he is would intiate the kiss patrick would back out after a few moments of kissing but then would ease back into it and kisses back leon

now patrick has been updated from best friend to boyfriend status i feel leon would be more protective over patrick like since the white house mission patrick is has panic attacks becuse of what happened in the hallway that night so leon is super protective of his boyfriend

they wouldn't bring work into their relationship and try to avoid it i feel they would rarely argue only time they had a serious argument if patrick was being dumb and nearlt hurt himself and leon would worried and upset or if leon injured himself (eg. broke arm or leg ) pat would get upset and really worried about leon's safety and health alll over they would have health and happy relationship

affection i dont think they would super affectionate with each other in public they might hold hands outside of the dso office but would rather like to be alone and be more intimate and affectionate alone in each others apartment would definetly sleepover at each others house and would fall asleep cuddling

when they text i feel when they have conversations patrick would talk and talk and leon would listen to pat while smiling and looking at his boyfriends lovingly or when they text i feel pat would get a little annoyed with leons dry texts and replies and would get upset and be over dramatic and ignore leon and leon tries to improve his texting , when leon tells patrick dad jokes and patrick cringes a bit or doesnt understand but he laughs with leon to not hurt his feelings i feel like there text mainly are just sending memes to each other at ungodly hours on the night and sending each others memes that gen z kids would cringe at but pat and leon would laugh because they think its funny

patrick def becomes obsessed with Leon after leon saved his life in the white house mission obsessed leon and follows him around like a lost puppy and leon doesn't mind and lets him because he just likes keeping tabs on his boyfriend what his doing where he is making sure he isnt dead ( pat is more clingy to leon )

at the dso office they kinda only talk to each other and basically are each others only friend unless if they talk to claire

one time patrick cooked a random recipe he saw online and when it doesnt taste good leon laughs and makes fun of his boyfriend and pat gets upset and ignores leon and leon apologizes to pat when pat ignores his sorry leon bribes him with pats fav food

another time they try pet names (eg. sweetheart, bub, my love ) they both internally cringed and just stick to calling each other there names

they defintely share clothes like hoodies and shirts i feel like when pat sleeps over at leons he on purposely doesn't bring clothes over so he can wear leons clothes because he likes the way leon clothes smell and when leon sleeps over and goes to borrow something and finds his missing shirts and hoodies he interrogates patrick and some miracle gaslights leon into believing that leon left the clothes his clothes at pats house and pat was going to return his clothes but pat was never ever. gonna return leons hoodies and shirts cause he loves them (bestie is obsessed with his boyfriend)

when leon gets introduced to patricks friends he accidentally scares pats friends at first but leon grows on them

they have strict rule at the dso office they keep professional that was until leon gets ,desperate for some affection and yanks patrick into random places like his office , the bathroom , after a meeting in the meeting room and at random times when patrick isnt expecting it they had a couple times when they nearly get caught making out by there boss but make good excuses

patrick definitely got jealous of ada wong and got upset and told leon to distance himself for her or at least not talk to her as much during missions and leon obviously respects his boyfriends wishes and doesn't talk to her as much because he is in a committed relationship with patrick ( ada also backs off leon and doesn't flirt with leon as much as when he was single just because ada cant commit to leon does not mean my pookie bear ada is a homewrecker she a respectful girly )(Patrick just wants Leon all to him self)

ada also during patricks missions protects patrick from danger ( not to make him sound fragile or weak he can defend himself like when he kicked the zombie but in re4 she diverts the zombies attention away from leon to her so leon could save ashley) she only does this cause she knows how much patrick means to leon

i feel like claire and patrick get along and become best friends and claire would definitely embarrassed leon to patrick and claire and patrick are ✨besties✨

everyone in dso office knows that patrick and leon are dating but forgot because pat and leon act more like friends then ✨boyfriends✨ other agents are confused how pat and leon ended up dating because patrick hated leon then dated ? they dont really question it and let the couple be

overall there relationship would fun slightly chaotic definetyl healthl

[cutegirlmayra]

Hey hey HEY! Mayra (can i call you like that?) have you imagine , how would Amy ask sonic for a date after sonic forces, i mean she would, rigth? And how about tails, would he have nightmares after it? I know the idws are coming, but can you just imagine it? Also i dont know if your promts are shunt down, but i think they are... Ideas? Well, ok, just imagine it.

I’m gonna imagine this… as a plot in a prompt, lol.

Booboo, you can callme whatever. Mayra, Mikaykay… (

PROMPTS ARE ON SHUT DOWN! Please, for the love of all that iswonderful and decent in this world, don’t send me anymore until I reopen them!

You can tell this one is old because IDW hadn’t come out yet, youcan SEE that I have a backload to deal with, but I love all of your amazingideas so much! Please keep them safely in a word doc or stored away until I canget all of these done and reopen the prompts again! :Db

(The preview image is from @lonelysadblob, please support her!)

Prompt———-

There was a murky haze of a deep, sun-soaked red that blew across like thick clouds with the howling wind. The desolate city, still ruined from Eggman’s rampage was now still and ghostly.

The restoration efforts were in full-swing now. It wasn’t a bad idea. Just pick up and repurpose some old stuff. No big deal.

However…

Sonic leaned over a steel railing that had been, at one point, painted white until the incident. Now the paint peeled just by his gloves skimming across it to hoist his chest’s weight as he leaned leisurely over the safety walk and peered out over the city that used to be bursting with busy life and vegetation.

The park was nearly a Serengeti at this point. Tall, dry grass had grown up from the cracks in the streets and spread out like someone’s bad hair day over the landscape. With the fires out, only soot remained, but it seemed to be helping the natural wildlife.

Even animals, as dismal as they appeared to be, were willingly working hard to restore what they could and salvage a new life together.

Sonic couldn’t frown now. He wouldn’t let himself.

It was kinda beautiful, in a weird sense of the word. Seeing the world push back against destruction and its people hold their heads high so soon after it’s destructor’s mess.

He shook his head and sighed, “Why are we always cleaning up this adult-child’s mess?” He mused, though he only spoke like this to himself.

It was hard not to take some things seriously, but Sonic tried not to let the mood affect him so much.

“Sadly, it seems to be the most anyone can do around here. Just cleaning up an old geezer’s trash bin and recycle it.”

Sonic was surprised to hear someone had heard his light ramblings, so he turned to the familiar voice with a look of curiosity.

“How long have you been there?”

She happily walked up to the railing, closing her eyes and leaning back on it, “Not long.” she seemed pretty chill, a lot had happened, and that usual cheeriness in her now seemed rather tame.

The bending of metal creaked at her pressure, just tugging on it lightly, but Sonic pushed back and made sure to equal out the payload. “It’s been a while.” he smiled a little brighter now, making up for her lack of usual spunk.

Then he smirked, “Missed me much?”

“We all did.” She gave him a sly look, “Especially Tails… he and I have been nightmares for a while now.”

Just behind a building in the back, Tails was asking some soldiers where Sonic could be.

After being told Amy asked too and they directed her to the railing just behind the collapsed skyscraper, they then asked him why.

“O-oh? Amy’s looking for him? Oh! No big reason! I just miss him is all.” Tails shook out his hands and then awkwardly scratched the back of his head. He had wanted some time with his best friend after little Sonic had left, he felt he needed some things cleared up…

Was Sonic mad at him? He didn’t look mad before. He looked happy, but Sonic usually looks happy. He worried Sonic may hold some feelings against him, considering he was powerless to stop Infinite and the other mock villains from pummeling him before.

He wearily approached the corner, his tails growing stiff and his arms shivering by his sides.

His eyes stung from last night’s tears. A cloud of regret and guilt had returned after he thought he had mourned for the last time when Sonic had come back, practically from everyone thinking he might have died until discovering he was trapped by Eggman… miles and miles away from the planet.

When he peeked around the corner, Sonic was chuckling.

“Nightmares? That sounds awful.”

“You’re laughing? That’s rude.” Amy puffed up her cheek, “We were all worried about you, ya know.” She turned her head a bit away but her eyes never left his.

He winked to her, “Haven’t ever had nightmares.”

Her face exploded with shock, “What?! Never? How is that even possible?”

He laughed again, shaking his head. “I just never have. Don’t give me wrong, I dream sometimes. But the worst thing I’ve ever dreamed was just something completely random and weird. Anyway, I’m sorry to have made you all worry, Amy. I tried to come back here as soon as I could.” he felt some of the contaminated wind flare-up in his nose and itched it. “The wind here sucks.” He huffed, feeling it dry up his throat as he breathed it in.

He rubbed just below his chin where his neck was, looking down. “I kinda owe you all one.”

“Your voice is a little raspy. Do you need some water?” Her face turned to concern again, bending a little to try and see his face better.

“Heh. I could really go for a chilidog right now!” He stood straighter and happier, which made Amy instantly comforted.

“Ohhh, you. I figured you might say something like that.” She removed her hands from the railing, dusting them off from the peeling paint left on them and placed them behind her back, rocking on her heels. “You know~ We could go for a walk out of this smoke’s path and find some grub down by the rest station. If you want too… we could talk a bit more there!” She leaped to securely wrap her arm around his own.

He was fumbling a moment, but not a lot. He looked at the warmth the gesture instantly gave him and found something in his heart trigger again.

“You know what?” He weakly gave her a cheesy, awkward smile with a typical bead of sweat trinkling down the side of his face. “I’ve almost forgotten how it felt like.”

“What felt like?” Amy blinked, tilting her head, still trying to be a bit flirty.

“You, the outside world… I still can’t fully remember, but I haven’t completely forgotten how it felt.” He crooked his arm into a true gentlemen’s hold for her to walk beside, and began making his way towards the corner Tails was peeking out from. “It’s almost like one of those weird dreams… But I’m glad I’m awake.”

His words stung Tails. ‘If it weren’t for me, Sonic wouldn’t be saying such sad things…’ he looked down at the dirt before quickly fleeing, spinning his tails as fast as he could before they leisurely made their way around the corner.

He could still hear them though… and that pained him.

“You mentioned Tails wasn’t feeling well either?”

“Oh, yeah. Well… He and I really took it pretty hard. Knuckles did too, but you know him, he was trying his best to get what needed to be done… done.” Her ears bent slightly.

Tails narrowed his eyes, ‘You don’t know how I’m feeling. It’s completely different. You’re not one to blame!’ his fists tightened, trying to fly faster so he could round the next corner before they reached it too. Street after street, just trying to remain at a constant, undetected distance.

Sonic would grow tried of walking soon, he’d offer to scoop Amy up, Tails couldn’t beat his speed but he could try and out-think it.

“Poor little buddy…” Sonic looked up at the sky, just lost in a moment of thought and empathy.

“H-hey…” Amy blushed a little, looking down and tugging on the end of her dress a little bit. “I wasn’t all rainbows and sunshine either, you know…” she felt his gaze shift back to her and continued, “I… Well, I couldn’t deny what I feeling. I just hoped that with enough faith, you were still with us. That you had somehow managed to escape and were secretly helping us from the shadows… somewhere… completely safe and unharmed. Well-fed. Happy…” she stopped walking a moment, her eyes glittering with a newfound wetness in the dry atmosphere.

He stopped too, smiling to her. “You okay?” He asked, tilting his head as she had done for him when she couldn’t see his expression.

“…Em.” she nodded, turning cheerily back to him. “Let’s go on a date!”

His eyes opened wide. “A date? Here?”

“Sure! I’m happy wherever you are, Sonic~” she cooed, scooting closer to him as he scratched his cheek with his finger, not sure how to respond to that.

“Aww… Gee, Amy, I-”

“No buts!” she pulled him towards her and took her arm around his and placed it up along his shoulders, pointing to their destination. “I think there may be ice cream this time!” the hub looked pretty far away… “Let’s ditch the refreshments! Those are for the civilians anyway. We should head home and take a breather.”

Her eyes beamed up at him, as Tails, unable to fully pull himself away, stood on top of a half-caved in building’s still-standing top structure and gripped the edges of the stone against his twitching fingers.

“That lousy… She should know better than to hog him to herself!” he slightly steamed out, “But… what if Sonic really doesn’t want to see me? She told him I had nightmares already… may I should just wait my turn.” He felt his confidence and self-worth slipping, failing himself as he slowly let his hands relax and slide off the edge of the already half-tumbled-over wall.

He slipped away as Sonic shrugged and scooped Amy up, just as he had predicted moments ago…

“Then let’s eat! I’m starved!”

“Hurray! Hehe!”

The two took off, leaving more dust in their wake as it trailed up to Tails, folded in a corner with his arms wrapped around his legs and his tails over his head…

Later that day, it was reported that Tails had been zipping around, keeping himself super busy with the restoration project and carrying supplies left and right, to and fro.

He didn’t dare go back to the hub but saw that Sonic and Amy’s mixed blur were flying down the streets as they returned to work, laughing together… so happy together…

He paused as he held the rope tied to a box with stones in it.

He watched them… Amy nailing some wood in as Sonic stumbled over some split nails and almost fell, but jumped up to Amy’s level and posed as though it was all just a break-dancing impov spoof. They continued to laugh as Tails’s energy slipped.

‘What if… she becomes his new best friend?’

The thought plagued him, as the rope began to slip through his fingers.

He shook his head, fighting back the depressive feelings and tightening his hold on his rope. “I won’t give up hope on Sonic again.” He assured himself. “I’ll talk to him later.” he took off, continuing the work.

In the night hours, he sneaked out of his room, walking down the hall towards Sonic’s door. His footsteps creaked, but he tried to be discreet, he gently twirled his tails so they didn’t make much sound but kept his footsteps lighter.

He couldn’t sleep anyway, not until he at least made peace and found some closure with Sonic.

But then…

“Hahaha…!” Sonic’s whispering laughter froze Tails’s entire being. It was coming from one of the hub’s main rest areas…

“Shh..! Sonic, someone will wake up and hear us!” Amy’s whispered voice… sent Tails slumping back to the ground, his tails falling with the action.

“I just think you calling me out to the ‘couch’ is hilarious, Amy.”

“I wanted more time with you…”

“We spent practically the whole day together!”

‘You did spend the whole day together…’ Tails grumbled in his mind, rolling his eyes, growing annoyed.

His lack of sleep wasn’t helping to keep his emotions in check either…

“I just~” she leaned against Sonic’s chest, spooking him out a bit. She closed her eyes, her hand grazing against the thin fur upon it, “…Wanted a few more words with you… would you stay until I fell asleep? For one night, at least, I want to sleep easy.” She breathed in his familiar scent, snuggled up a little next to him, and began to take long, calming breaths.

Sonic fidgetted, looking around as though not able to really relax himself.

He lifted a foot up to his knee and tapped it repeatedly, moving his hands to the rim of the couch’s back and looking away from her, just seeming uneasy.

She didn’t bother to say anything but just looked up annoyed at him.

He got the message and apologetically smiled down to her, “I’m… not really sure I can ease you into sleep like this, Amy.”

“Oh, no?” She teased, being sarcastic before smiling. “What’s on your mind then?”

Tails creeped back to his door, about to take the knob and deal with his second-best feelings when…

“I’m actually pretty worried about Tails, to be honest.”

His heart peaked a moment as his breath jumped.

“Tails?” Amy tilted her head off his chest, and Sonic took the motion as an opportunity, moving her away.

“No offense, Amy. But I haven’t really seen him all day. I heard from the guys he was working hard too. You said he was having nightmares? I’m used to that. Tails has always had weirder dreams than me. But, the thing is, he always tells me about them. No matter how whacked out they are, he’s never failed to tell me what’s on his mind.”

Tails’s whole face began to break, slowly tightening as his vision on the door knob blurred with tears, his mouth spreading to make way for his silent wailing.

“Tails is my best friend, Amy. I want to make sure he’s alright too.”

There was a loud thump as Tails’s knees hit the ground hard.

“WHAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAHHAHAAAA!” gross, ugly sobbing came from the hallway as people’s lights flickered on and the whole of that sector was alive with fright.

That night, in Tails’s room, Sonic rubbed Tails’s head as he clung to Sonic, crying a little less dramatically from before, but still tearfully sobbing as Sonic spent the entire night hearing his fears and comforting him with his laughter… perfectly directed to him and him alone.

Amy understood, heading off to bed, but Tails still felt the need to tell Sonic that it’s bros before smoes. (your dudes before excuses)

The next day, Amy asked if both Sonic and Tails wanted some ice cream, Tails left the two to have another walk and gladly proclaimed, “But he’s my best friend!”

Amy giggled, looking up to Sonic, “I’m sorry. I didn’t realize how selfish I was being...”

Sonic gave her a playful wink, “Yeah, you’re kinda terrible at that.”

She smacked his arm and that was that.

(Kinda a friendship Sonic and Tails but also Sonamy? Hope you enjoyed it! :Db)

[honeypressed]

🌺 Kpop Q & A 🌺

I’ve been tagged by @pikachulein and @littlefallenrebel!!! thank you uwu i hope you guys are having a nice day <3

💟 Who is your ultimate bias? 💟

oh no you cant make me do this :(((( Lee Minho from Stray Kids because I really love him so much and his dancing caught my eye from the first sight hahaha but tbh i always bias the dancers in any group and i spot them first so ;~;

💟 Who is your ultimate bias wrecker? 💟

Lovelyz’s Seo Jisoo because she’s amazing and i love her with my whole heart and soul please stan lovelyz they will heal your soul i can guarantee that theyre the sole reason why i survived my childhood

💟 What is your favourite kpop song? 💟

N O WHY ONLY ONE???? well of all time it’s a tie between candy jelly love and u r, and you can clearly see i gear towards soft love songs uwu though candy jelly love’s lyrics are so sweet i think they apply to friendships too hehe

💟 What was your first kpop song? 💟

ur not gonna believe me but it was actually lovelyz’s candy jelly love! i fell in love with the song immediately bc i just came out of watching girly animes and i loved the soft vibes lovelyz gave and from then on i became a lovelinus and from there i stanned infinite and the rest is history B))

💟 What is your favourite kpop album/single? 💟

dsafhgf STOP MAKING ME CHOOSE THIS IS ILLEGAL U H honestly i’d have to say Stray Kids’ ‘I Am WHO’ bc the concept itself of wondering who are you as you grow up, and the message to take it at your own pace and don’t compare yourself to others is something i need to tattoo onto my mirror haha and ofc you get songs like Insomnia which i stan so hard, and Mixtape 2 is soft soft hella soft and i cry every time,,,, and M.I.A. is a queen she went so hard i love the lyrics of M.I.A. especially oops Question had a crackhead video so its so loved no doubt and i really love the choreography of Voices and how heartbreaking it is fsaojfh and Awkward Silence should be an icon solely because of the caw caw caw and like have you ever seen such cute choreography i busted the fattest u w u 

💟 Are you a hard or a soft stan? 💟

soft stan 100000%!!!! im not too sure what a hard stan actually is but im assuming its when fans thirst over idols? haha i dont really have sexual attraction and i first found this out when people found me weird for not looking at kissing scenes during movies or shows like..... sorry im not normal ughgois :((

💟 Favourite kpop company 💟

ooh im definitely a woollim stan! i stanned lovelyz, then i stanned infinite and then golden child, and now im a jyp stan too oops,,, i know i casual stanned twice for ages, then got into got7 and then majored in stray kids and day6 said hi and i fell flat on my feet and now itzy is taking over my life what’s new

💟 Backstory 💟

ahhh i mentioned before that ive been stanning lovelyz since 2014, so that’s where i started! i actually got to know kpop through an anime called pretty rhythm, where they had real jpop and kpop stars sing the songs, and i stanned a jpop group called Prizmmy from there. I knew Puretty sang the other songs but they were in japanese lol and somehow I found lovelyz? im not even sure how but i remember watching their music video for candy jelly love in my old apartment in my dad’s study room and being so happy and watching the bright pastels and i didn’t even know music like this existed. before that, i mostly listened to old songs my parents played, like songs from the 80s i think? and piano music bc i played piano but i wasnt really happy then since i found it stressful and music wasnt a happy place for me, but lovelyz changed that for me, and i simply didnt know what kpop was, but lovelyz made me happy, and when i checked back a few months later they had Hi~ out and i loved them even more! after watching mijoo dance to Bad on weekly idol i found out about infinite and they are the first boy group i stanned, and i still love them so much to this day ahhh ;~; and the rest is history <3

I’m tagging @stay-grandma @stray-anpanman @tremendouslyfamousbarbarian @kindaweiird @channieroo @jisunday @honeyhyvck @alyabumle @solilogyu @hellevatored and anyone else who wants to do this!!! please feel free to do so <3

[ramblingshit]

Jane Eyre - 1996 - 2/5

what even is acting. what even is a script.

wasn't gonna do this one but fuck it's aunt petunia and rogue. here we go.

lots of credits fairo. more credits. damn fukin eh - i hear you're a wicked child! lol hi. now we're talking about hell and where bad people go. 'keep well and not die' ahaha m8. fkn reed putting seed in that she's a liar. teach her at her prospects, don't let her come back, she's a lying little shit take her away from here. he's appropriately scary oh shit she's saying this in front of the priest. damn tear that lady a new one. unruly, obstinate, wicked, deceitful, man these people hate kids who act out. walks in and damn she's on teh stool already - IS THAT THE LADY FROM PERSUASION. damn she just got here and he's telling everyone to not trust her, she doesn't get to eat and has to stand - she's just done hours of travelling fuckin assholes. IT IS THE LADY FROM PERSUASION. shes got dark hair and dark eyes and shes like glaring at everyone like shes onna kill him in their sleep. lol enjoy helen while she's alive. eatin bread and cheese in bed like she's not gonna get crumbs. omg telling these kids how to stand properly what why this lady hate her she's gonna cane her for not washing her hands. bish doesn't even flinch go helen. 'cleanliness is next to godliness' alright crazy. this school is a lot more chill than most of the others - they're laughing and doing what they want as well as learning and playing games. making jane out to be a pro artist. oh no ol mate saw her with her hair out. no dont cut it. 'vanity?' shes out here with naturally long, red and curly hair and he's out here calling her vain? because he recognises it as lovely she must be vain about it? what a fkn dickhole get off your high horse sexist moron pig anus head. what. he's saying her naturally  iwgh what i don't even understand his shit - it isn't offending him thats the issue its her naturally occuring sin and vanity (because her hair exists?) that is the issue??  what. lol go Jane. NO. oh fuck go Jane go. this guyyyy. don't do it Jane. chin held high she only does it when Helen nods at her to. DAAAAAAAAMN. took of her own bonnet. if Helen's hair goes so does Janes. they stood together looked at each other and flipped their heads over for him to go snip snip, bish looked shock and actually stepped back in horror. What a bae. Helen's fkn dying send help. fuck this lady should not be working with children considering how much she hates children. o shit where's helen. her beds all rolled up. can hear her hacking away in the distance. yikes that sounds bad. jane be creepin. oh fuck she's a terrible actress even as a kid. who honestly thinks its a good idea to hire her. she lying in her dying friend's bed and she's breathing all over her. isn't anna paquin australian? no? ah new zealand fairo. oh fuck Helen's daed. she's trying to squeeze out tears ahah oh no. she can't manage it. anna go back to new zealand you suck at acting who hired you ever. Riparoonies helen. that was actually the greatest jane and helen moment i've seen tbh. oh damn cool transition as she walked from helen's grave - she went from kid to adult. whats this part down the midde all of them got. Miss Temple fam, persuasion lady, fantastic lady, crying as Jane leaves like her mumma. this jane is long-flat-faced with a long protruding jaw, and very tall and skinny. thornfield looks like its already burned down ahaha. straight up castle here. she's got her drawing stuff as well as her bag. nice friendly ol mate meets her and opens the gates - big ass square this is some game of thrones shit yearh this place is like medieval more than victorian. the middle parted hair and the curled twists behind her head they're pretty much exactly the same in most Janes. all chillin and chatting about this together rather than completely separate. adele actually legit sounds french rather than just pretending? noice. dreary, cold, dark halls. her room is bright and airy with a four-poster bed and bay windows and lots of very nice furniture. river runs beside it; enormous tapestries; main gallery with lots of furniture and paintings and sculpures all covered in sheets with windows open to let in light; the doors are very large and heavy. Janes got a very long neck she looks legit like a fkn swan lmao. ooh a rochester backstory. well-travelled, intelliegent, can't tell if he's talking in jest or in earnest, or if he is pleased or irritated, not a happy man. they're just walking about in his rooms. the sun shines bright but cannot reach them through the thick mist. they're very soft-spoken. god her head is so far forward she's like the alien - long ass neck stretching forward and then her chin and jaw stretching wayyyy forward. wack wack anatomy.  it's very dark and dreary. she's off for a walk leaving adele to do like 5 sums. oh she's been here five minutes and they're already meeting. the music is like ... not appropriately intense? he just sorta looked at her, the horse tripped over and then he was on the floor and she's like whoops uh you alright bro. he's outright lying and pretending that he's not rochester his hair is grotty he's got like no hair on top they've just tries to scraggle it. this is so stunted and awkward. i hope it gets better. he's very gentle and she's pretty nonexistent to far. my god very gentle man. what. is he even rochester? that's a german shepherd. noice. playin chess by himself by the fire lol. this movie would be made infinitely better by an actual soundtrack. they're all chilling together again it's interesting - adele and fairfax and rochester and jane. wait she's been here 4 months. it literally didn't show anything about her chilling here. she talked back and now he's grumpy lol. what a terrible start compared to like... every other first convo. isn't she supposed to be not great at piano and yet she's teaching adele -- wait now we're at another convo between the duo. this convo is the other half of --- wait now we're talking sketches? jesus she hmm what are they talking about she's being forward and fuck her chin twists forward as she speaks she kinda looks like the wicked witch of the west. he's judging her drawings like he can do better. this is a mess? the best part about this so far is adele.  there's no sense of time. adele is gorgeous honestly. she's pale and gaunt with bags beneath her eyes. wait here's the next part of the conversation. blunt and brusque replies from her. god they're so obviously acting its painful. they have no chemistry because the CONVERSATION IS ALL OVER THE PLACE. they've done it on pruspose to try stretch things out a bit but like plz EY why he scrunch up the drawing wtf. 'and remember the shadows are as important as the light'. dudes. these are private conversations? it would be alright to try it more naturally but they're just not the kind of things you casually say. it's impersonal and there's no intimacy. sit there and watch a kid dance to the sound of a music box. he's so grumpy looking. now snapping at the kid. he's annoying. like a violent dude he feels more like a nice guy quick to snap - definitely kinda unhinged. and now drunk. hmm i don't like it. she told him not to be mean to adele and he rages about her mother, 'you've made adele feel unwanted and unloved' damn this Jane goes for the throat. she's too good for him I can see it now m8. he's a psycho run. red flag red flag. don't like it. lol he wake up like huh.... oh look beds on fire... huh... well suppose i should sort it out... huh... fuck they're barely acting huh. do they even want to be here. how much are these guys getting paid. he's literally a drunk. and has she had a drink in her life? she just went for it? omg so impersonal - isn't he supposed to be already half in love with her by this point? camera angle just flicks forward and back as the conversation goes on and when theres action it just pans back to the widest shot ever lol just show the entire scene why give any emphasis or focus to anything who needs reaction shots and feelings of being in it rather than observing it. fkn ey. he's literally just an angry blitering brooding drunk yikes. he's staring at her tits? these conversations man... he definitely just said jade instead of jane. m8 don't tell me he didn't. there's more intimacy between all the servants and jane and feeling more like an actual squad living together than there is any feeling between rochester and jane. adeles got a frog lol cute. 'you're a fool,' jane tells her reflection. this music is so shit it's bringing everything down. rochester, who's been an unfeeling ass the whole time, holds her hand once and now she's got a big crush on him. she's very spirited - to the point where she could too easily be cruel. like it's not just a repressed forcefulness it's like a hidden rage. can see her going mad and chopping someone up with icy rage and poised pleasure. wonder if i'm in a mood and interpreting this wrong? but honestly. dancing rochester now? instead of singing. adele is glaring at Mrs Ingram who just insulted jane lolol go kid she's definitely the best part. the background people actually make this place feel alive and natural, completely unlike their FUCKING AWFUL conversations. jesus what. god could you have two people less interested in each other? i think this fairfax knows about bertha. there's a 'tapestry bedroom'? lol what does that mean. they're dancing, playing cards, piano, the lot. oh the walls are literally covered in tapestries, that's creepy af. theres so much blood my dude would be dead yo. will hurt like doesn't know how to act. wwait theyve skipped my 'fav scene'?? theyre shaking hands again, wtf is this. wait what shes just met stjohn n he;s the one telling her all about the reeds? petunias dying 'love me then or hate me as you will - you have my full and free forgiveness' - i cant forgive any version that misses that out: its so powerful as part of her character. stalking her while he smokes in the dark what a creeper. 'how cuold you be so stupid!' lol fight him Jane i dont even know how we got to kissing likr the movie is almost 2 hours and yet it feels SO rushed. literally took away all the secret courting and his sneaky declarations. shes a modern woman trapped in an old age.  she is so skinny. and with entirely stiff expressions. ew he makes me so uncomfortable. theyre not even trying lol. acting ey acting have u heard of it. just left jane at the altar like bye bitch.shes just in a giant empty ugly room. bertha is a very young and frightened girl but also very sick in the typical long white dress and long dark hair. god this guy is a whingebum. bertha understands everything he's saying. oh yikes lol she just whipped a log from the fire and went after Jane and Jane just put her veil back down with like a sigh turned and yeeted slowly away long ass veil over a white bonnet, silk cape thing in a dark hallway walking all miserable. she's outies lol he's just let her walk out? i love u and i love u. bye. bertha's taken another log from the fire and lit the wedding dress on fire along with the house ahaha. wait he let her leave the house then ran after her on horseback but had to stop after bertha lit the place on fire it started burning and we're actually seeing it happen? interesting. the house is burning, pepople are running, bertha's on the battlements and rochester is going up there to --oh fuck grace poole got yeeted over by bertha oh she's flying ahahaha jumped down to where she threw grace poole. rochesters in the fire. jane's off and racing. it's all happened at once. she went to stjohns, didn't even get dumped in teh marshes but down she goes after chilling in a coach for 3 days. shes been there a month. her jaw is so long and forward its creepy. again one fo the few telling her that she's wealthy from inheritance from her uncle. more backstory. she was deeply loved by her parents, now she's wealthy, lifes looking up but she's all upset after than asshole lol move on and be happy. she's hearing his voice on the wind like please chill. damn 6months. what. um. he's very awkwardly trying to propose? but its like the last half of the conversation with the first bit just cut out. so weird. she looks normal face-on. oh she decides after the proposal to go back - none of that chasing after voices nonsense. whoops that shit burned downnn. doggoooo is still alive. what a good boy. fuck me there's like no anticipation, no intensity, no build-up, no chemistry, it's so dry and cold and heartless. christ acting. act. acting. act. please. act. what is happening. act. she has the neck of a swan ol mate. fucking gross. their words are stilted, and not romantic in the slightest and especially not in their delivery. theyre walking with no kids but the dog but they're talking about the kids. oh my god. that was pretty fkn awful. like seriously not good.

[pilotheather]

aye, really starting to loathe the “yaz kills either graham/ryan whilst under the dalek influence” like-

1. first of all. hate this presumption that graham/ryan have to die. personally, im fine with companions dying - clara’s penultimate exit in face the raven was done beautifully, i think, and i will FOREVER resent them not leaving it like that. however with graham and ryan? literally, i just feel like... it’s so cheap. it offers nothing, babes! and it’s just infinitely LESS interesting than if you just kept them alive.

all the companions, in my opinions, still lack development. i do love them! i really am warming to them. but we’re two seasons in, and the fact of the matter remains they just... haven’t gelled too well with the show proper and they aren’t as fully realised as they should be by this point. and frankly, its not one singular problem moreso it’s an interwoven web of issues (hence it’s hard to really unpick that, without unravelling the whole mess) that have affected the show completely. the point is, despite being here so long, they just still feel so unexplored as people and a little unknown to us and idk!!! i think killing them, wouldn’t offer much in the way of anything interesting - other than, like i said, a very cheap way to instigate tragedy, and springboard some trauma-induced development for yaz&13 - because we aren’t really gaining more than we’re losing here, man.

clara’s exit in face the raven WORKED because it had been building up to it all season. i also dont like amy/rory’s exits (but that’s v potentially my own biases) but theoretically, i can see the vision for that- and the reason why that would be so tragic, is BECAUSE amy&rory are so fully formed at tht point that that loss hits. im not sayin graham&ryan dying would NOT be sad, but it’s... just too soon, still, for me. and when, narratively speaking, they’ve been setting up them thinking about leaving anyway? at least, ryan has? just doesn’t feel quite right at all and just like i said: a pointless attempt, at taking their exits, and doing weird tragedy shit with it for the sake of it.

especially when the ALTERNATIVE is they can stay on in the same way martha did: on earth, totally fine, and with the opportunity to reappear in later seasons. they can progress offscreen in ways that can be satisfying, in the way martha did. she moved on; she became someone different; and yet that change was still guided by what we had seen. same can be done with ryan and graham, finishing their stories and making them all the more satisfying.

2. piggybacking off of that. literally, this scenario of yaz killing them: what would that DO for yaz exactly? like.. what big payoff are u expecting from her? you’re just... horrifically traumatising her. and im wondering, like- where would that leave her in s13?  because she’s supposed to still be here, then, and supposedly travelling with the doctor. and again it just feels so damn cheap: because yaz really does still feel like she’s at the beginning of her story, despite being here for two years (and god am i a little mad abt that; it’s so, so sad that she really could be replaced with a cardboard cutout for most of s11). explore what we HAVE of her, first, before trying to go so damn dark with her. it’s not going to have the payoff you want. you have to work a bit more, to do something like that first. using some fucked up shit like that, just as a springboard for character development it just- it feels so damn lazy to me...  and again, i do not feasibly see how this could properly segue into s13 on that damn note. like the conse

3. and just... god in general. i just. okay again with chibbers and his writing. literally i dont want to sound so negative abt chibnall bc like SOME ppl really do just fucking attack . KILL. over every damn thing, without a breath and its like... okay babe. okay. and i mean, granted i can be a little like tht with moffat tbh - and so  i get ppl do get a little FERVENT when it comes to shit they dont like but- BUT MY POINT IS. i really dont hate-hate this era of who. s7 will still be my least favourite, even if i do still regard this all as bottom of the pile stuff- and that is frustrating, because it really does have potential! but anyway god. what was my fucking point. oh yeah. chibnall. if this was the case.... if this really did fucking happen. god no offence but fucking hell i do not trust chibnall to treat such a heavy scene well enough. not with the way s11 and s12 have been. and its just because... again this is all the WEB OF ISSUES with these seasons... but all of it just boils down to: every single script really needed a second or third pass over. ITS LIKE, things are kinda right, but its always jsut...wrong and its soi many things that just dont quite work and  instead all work in tandem to bring this ship down.

too many companions, leading to a bloated tardis; leading to none of them getting enough focus; leading to weaker characters whose dynamics with each other aren’t always hitting. there’s swathes of s12, where the doctor is just completely disconnected from the companions altogether. she just doesnt talk to them. and there’s a difference between her being detached, and her just.... LITERALLT FORGETTING THEY EXIST. i remember- was it ryan who disappears at one poimt, and she JUST DOESNT NOTICE? and then all of them disappear in fugitive? like its just so... the companion-docgtor relationship is so INTEGRAL to the whole show!!! it makes story beats less effective; not even that, the whole energy is brought down, because they just don’t TALK properly (and the dialogue... good god, is it stiff: and whilst i hated 11′s era of mutated LOL THAT’S SO RANDOM. THE HORSE IS NAMED SUSAN. BOWTIES FEZ FEZ HOW MANY MARKETABLE RANDOM SHIT CAN WE THROW AT THE PAAAGE it felt like characters were bouncing off each other... there’s now these long pauses, places where it should have been snappier, awkward remarks thrown in there and then) . it, again, bloats EVERYTHING bc half the time you have to just give stuff for these ppl to do and its like man, why! why ! its all so.... sloppy in a way that’s sad bc it was ALMOST right. things are ALMOST right here but it doesnt QUITE work and it needs pulling together into something neater, tighter.  AND GIVEN ALL OF THAT. i do not think, with the way he’s been handling things, this man would ever be capable of pulling off something as fucked up like that in a way that has any weight even disregarding the two above points

4 lastly. just fucking dont kill ryan man. c’mon. how many main, black characters have we had? hmm, let’s see. martha, mickey, danny, bill. we’re going at a 50% survival rate, with the other two facing pretty poor treatment in the writing room in general. no, im not letting it go: you cant literally refer to mickey, who was the first, like, leading black character on the show, as a fucking DOG repeatedly.  if you’re gonna decide to diversify the tardis, pay your dues; dont fucking axe him for what, again, really just feels like empty emotional tortureporn. ryan deserves better.

[mysterolineheart444world]

Cake Tasting | Steroline Drabble

A/N: A drabble set post 8x14. 

It was not what she had expected to see when she walked into the boarding house. Her brows furrowed as took a long look at the dark haired vampire, standing ghostly still, a glass of his favourite liquor in hand, the weight of the world seemingly on his immortal shoulders.

“Where is everyone?”Bonnie asked. 

It took him a second to register her presence. “They haven’t come down yet” He said, his voice distant. 

Bonnie shook her head; part of her frustrated at her best friend’s obvious lack of urgency, while the cynic inside mocked her for expecting any better. 

“Katherine Pierce is running hell”, She said annunciating each syllable distinctly in an attempt to reign in her rage. “Why haven’t you told Stefan?”

“Why havent you told Caroline?”

“I….” She folded her arms across her chest. “We are in an awkward-ish place right now.”

“What happened with Enzo is not her fault.” Damon said.

“I didn’t say it was”, Bonnie said avoiding his gaze. “You should have told them. You had the whole night to strategise and come up with a plan.”

“Stefan and Caroline finally got their ducks in a row. I wanted to give them a night till I broke the bad news.”

“What bad news?” He heard Stefan’s voice from behind him.

He turned around to see Stefan and Caroline look at him with concern. 

“You may wanna sit down for this brother” 

Stefan sighed. Does it ever end? 

“How long have you known about this?” He asked.

“Not long.. since last night”

Stefan nodded, a shadow of a smile on the edge of his lips, grateful that Damon kept this piece of information to himself and let him have one perfect night with Caroline before things went back to chaos. 

“Ric cant be involved in nabbing Katherine, I need him to be with the kids and keep them safe.”

“Agreed” Stefan said immediately. Kai almost getting to the twins had both him and Caroline shaken. 

“So how do the rest of us get Katherine to show herself?” Caroline asked. She had jumped right into crisis management mode. 

“Well…” Damon said awkwardly.

“Why do i get the feeling I’m not going to like what you are about to say” Stefan groaned. 

“What if i said I had a fool proof way to get Katherine to drag her ass up to where we are, and I’m not talking say her name three times and the devil appears.. I’m talking about using her biggest weakness against her” He said with a smug smile, 

“I dont follow” Bonnie said in a dreary tone.

“Stefan.” Damon said matter-of-fact like.

“What?” Stefan asked in disbelief.

“She is obsessed with Stefan, we shove his happiness in her face and she won’t be able to control herself.” Damon said looking at Caroline. Convincing her almost. 

Red flag, Stefan registered. 

“Happiness?” Stefan asked, regretting it the moment it left his tongue. 

“We throw the one party Katherine would never miss”

Caroline’s brows furrowed in confusion as Damon looked on.

“Who doesn’t love a wedding”

“No” Stefan said decisively before Caroline could answer. 

“Stefan” 

“Absolutely not” Stefan said moving past Damon ad grabbing Caroline’s hand.

“I guess.. if-” Caroline

“Not happening” He cut her off and lead her back to their room.

“Its the best way blondie, you know I’m right” Damon yelled from behind them.

He turned around and headed back to the liquor cabinet.

“Thats it?”Bonnie asked unimpressed. “Aren’t you gonna try harder to get Stefan on board”

“Dont have to.”

“Really?”

“Caroline knows this is the the best shot we got.. And anything Caroline wants, Stefan obliges” He says as he raised his glass as if toasting his own brilliance. 

“You’re so full of yourself”, Bonnie said looking away bored. 

“It can be done. Everything’s pretty much picked out, the location, the theme, the dress, the tuxedos, flower girl dresses, caterers. We just have to move up the date” Caroline rambled as they made their way to Stefan’s room.

“No, it cant happen, not like this.”

“Stefan-”

“We haven’t gone cake tasting yet” Stefan said shutting the door behind them.

“What?”

“Its not June, we haven’t gone cake tasting and this is just not how its supposed to be” Stefan blurted, completely frazzled.

“It’s not ideal, but-” Caroline said softly.

“We are not doing this. I promised you a perfect wedding and thats what we are going to have.” He said, breathless almost. 

Caroline nodded softly.

“You know… a wedding is only as perfect as the one you’re marrying” She said moving closer to him and placing her hands on his chest gently. “Which means I’m going to have the perfect wedding whether its in June, March or in freezing December”

Stefan smiled softly as his hands found hers; his eyes however had a sorrow she couldn't place. 

“Whats this really about?”

“Its like i said.. its about cake tasting.. and doing this right..giving you your June wedding..” He ran his hands down his face and stepped away. Being human wasn’t supposed to be this hard. Vampires were the ones with dialled up emotions, not humans. Yet here he was, distraught at the future he lost and lamenting his current predicament.  

“You’re going to do this again Caroline.” He said, his voice cracking as his heart grew unbearably heavy. “He’ll love you and there will be no Katherine to ruin it.” He paused and swallowed as a tear broke free. “His brother won’t suggest sacrificing your big day for the greater good. You’ll go cake tasting with him and plan out the June wedding you’ve always wanted and this.. our wedding.. will be about saving the day and I will be the guy who compromised and sacrificed what you really deserved.. I dont want to be remembered as that guy.” Stefan said trying with no avail to blink away his tears. 

How he wished he wasn’t human. 

“Stefan, no..” She said, her voice thick with sorrow. He could see her eyes filling up. 

“And the one thing worse… infinitely worse, is the thought of you never moving on.. of you… not finding happiness again.. thats not what i want.. thats not what I meant ..” He said, shaking his head; tears flowing down his cheeks as words failed him. 

 She shook her head softly and enveloped him in a warm embrace. 

“I hate that one lifetime is all I have to give.”

“I know..” Caroline said. 

She pulled away from the hug and wrapped her hand around the back of his neck. “I know this is not how we planned anything.. but you have to believe me when i say that i will never look back on our wedding as a compromise or anything less that what it is - me, marrying the love of my life” She said as fresh tears formed at the corner of her blue eyes. 

He lunged forward and kissed her. 

“This is our best chance at catching her.. if we don’t do this, we may live to regret it..” She said, consoling him as their foreheads met.

“How am i supposed to protect you? She’ll come after you and I’m just human” He whispered. 

“We’ll figure it out… We are not doing this alone.” She said reassuringly. 

He sighed and moved to kiss her again. 

“Now come on” She said sounding moderately up beat. “Katherine can wait a few hours. We’re going cake tasting” She smiled.

His eyebrows shot up perplexed. 

“Just because we are moving up the wedding doesn’t mean we cant do it right.. cake tasting and all.”

He grinned at her.

She turned and headed out the door. 

“So do I get more of a say in this as I’m a fragile human about to-”

“DONT PUSH IT !”

He chuckled as he followed her down the stairs. 

[lifeisaboxofcereal]

No clue who this is addressed to, nor what the purpose of this is/will be, but feeling exasperated that nothing helps me feel better, how about I give venting via writing a shot.

Here’s the deal. I’ve been involved with this guy for about 5+ years. Lets call him owl. Its the first thing I looked at in my apartment trying to come up with a code name instead of publishing this guys name who any of you reading most likely already know his name via any of my fb posts in the last 5 years. I met him my freshman year at UD. Ballroom dance team. To this day I dont even know if I can explain what drew me to him. He was cocky and confident, cheeky, and cute. He danced. He was a Marine. He seemed so out of my league as a dorky, naive, super awkward freshman that didn’t know anything about college culture. I learned quick that a few dates does not mean we’re dating, and that he was a man of many many ladies. I learned quick that he did not really take my feelings into consideration but I would put them aside and accept any interactions or affections that were given. We had a connection and I had fun with him. I just wanted to go with it.

I went with it for all four years of college. Always waiting for when he’d finally be ready to commit. Or see how much I do for him. How I’m always there, good times and bad.  Even when he really really pisses me off. Waiting for him to see that I was his best friend the way I saw that he was mine. Waiting for him to stop messing up with me, appreciate me, cherish me, want to show me off.

I’m gonna be honest, that never came. Not in college. I didnt date anyone else. I didnt get involved with anyone else more than a few months, and those involvements were usually the product of me and owl being in one of our phases where we were on the outs and he was not talking to me. but once we were good again sure enough I’d lose interest in whoever it was that I was entertaining in that time. I regret a lot of that. Not giving others real chances, because they actually deserved them and wanted them.

But with him it was always like a game, like a chase, never ending, suspenseful, thrilling, exciting, passionate, never a boring moment. Always keeping me guessing. I hated it but I loved it. He didn’t respect me, and he didnt respect my feelings, but still I stuck around. It’s only now that I’m seeing that I had slowly been losing respect for myself, so what incentive would he have for respecting me when I was being a hypocrite? Our dynamic was one of push and pull. There were the times he’d pull me in and never want to let me go, and then without warning he would push me away and leave me feeling abandoned and confused as to what I did to deserve it.

He hurt me a lot. Never physically. Never. Never forced himself on me, I never once was physically scared of him. But emotionally. Every year there was at least one incident. One big fight that seemed like the be all end all. That would leave me in my dorm crying with my roommate wondering how he could be so cold and harsh towards me after everything I’ve done and everything we’ve shared. Always wishing that he would miss me and realize everything and change. It was a clear cycle, and I’m not stupid, I was very cognizant of it, but idk, i liked it and i was still waiting. What I had with him was so different and special I couldnt let it, or him, go.

Last year, October, we had a big falling out. That was really the be all end all. I knew because, and as stupid as this is or sounds, in all of our fights we had never unfriended each other on facebook or done something as extreme or defining as that. We always left doors open. But with this, he burned all bridges. He made a facebook status about me. He wanted all of my things out of his place. He 100% snapped. It was over, he broke things off and our 4 years of being together but not really together, was over.

I spent the next 5 months in therapy and trying to keep busy with friends and classes and trying to find myself again. So much of my identity was dependent on him and associated with him. All of my memories included him. Even dance reminded me of him. I was so lost. And missed him so much but had motivation to work on myself and for once be comfortable and happy with being on my own. I remember one particular session with my therapist in which she told me that if I still have hope that we will reconcile one day, I need to completely let go of what we had. Put it to rest, let it go, mourn it, and leave it in the past, because there was too much to be fixed and too much wreckage to salvage anything. That if we were to ever reconcile it would have to be a completely clean slate. Free of the past transgressions. So that night I blocked him. I blocked his number, his facebook. his snapchat, everything. It was hard and scary but I did it in hopes that thats what I needed to do even if temporarily and symbolically leave our 4 years together in the past.

2 days later was Valentines day. I was supposed to go to a devils game with a friend and she cancelled last minute because she was sick. I reached out to everyone in my phone to try to find someone to go with me because I did not want to spend valentines day in bed thinking about him and missing him. Nobody could come to the game. I was offered a shift at work and almost took it but someone hopped on it before I could. So i was left with chinese food and netflix. I let myself cry and be upset, and feel the hurt remembering our past valentines days together. And then my mom came to my room and let me know that jake was coming to the house. shit i said his name. whatever. she let me know that he asked permission to come and clear the air, and that he would be there in 40 minutes.

He was there in 30, and we sat down, with my best friend as a third party, and we talked for 5 hours. About everything. Anything. All the grievances we had with each other. What we realized. What we regretted. And he told me that he loved me. That he needs me in his life, and said all of the things that I had waited 4 years for. I kept thinking about how right my therapist was, about letting go and letting them come to you, about starting fresh, about leaving the past in the past.

The months that followed were the epitome of a honeymoon phase. My god. we were finally doing things right. He was showing me off, appreciating me, never wanted to let me go, it was everything. I dont think I’ve ever been so happy. We were so in love with each other, so excited, couldn’t wait more than 2 weeks to visit each other again. We moved in together. We made an apartment a home together. We started new jobs and set goals. We motivated each other, supported each other, and wholeheartedly loved each other. I finally felt like I was in a functional and healthy relationship. I felt so loved every single day and I finally understood what people meant about that unbelievable feeling of being in love with someone who was just as in love with you. We did and learned so much together. We had setbacks, and tiffs here and there, but we worked through each one.

Theres a lot in between then and now, but I don’t think it’s worth getting into or explaining. All I can say is that I don’t know how we went from that, to this. Not speaking. Not looking at each other. An apartment that was once so full of love and laughter now only has silence and tension.

He has problems. And to be honest. I’ve always known that but never wanted to accept it. I have problems too because I am very compliant. The relationship became emotionally abusive. I am mentally abused. And he has left me hating myself when I dont even know who I am. I don’t regret staying with him. I don’t regret getting back with him last year. I dont regret anything. All i’ve done is love and give as much as I possibly can. Im not angry. More than anything, i’m disappointed.

I thought he was it. Actually. I know he is. If he were to get the help that he needed. But in a normal relationship, when there is an issue, you don’t feel that your partner becomes a completely different person. That’s not normal. And right now, I don’t know who he is. For the past 2 weeks I have been wishing I could just snap him out of it. Grab him by the shoulders and shake him. Show him a photo of us and see him come back to me. I have written heartfelt letter after heartfelt letter. Debating giving one to him in hopes of softening him up and coming out of this haze of anger and hatred hes in right now. But thats not normal. I shouldnt have to snap him out of anything. I shouldnt have to wish he’d come back. I shouldnt have to plead and beg for him to remember our good times to soften up. None of it is normal. He dissociates. And when i look at his eyes hes not there. I know this sounds dramatic but it’s true. It’s scary, it’s hurtful, it worries me, but it’s true. He completely detaches, and it’s as though he never knew me. As though we never shared a single experience together. And nothing I do can bring him out of that place. As I write this, I feel like I’m writing or remembering someone that died. And thats because essentially, that is how I feel. the man i spent the past year with loving and learning and GROWING died. He’s gone and I dont know why or where he is. And i’m left with this fraction of myself that doesn’t know how to cope with any of it.

He’s not good for me. Its not worth it. I deserve better. I’m going to be so much happier without him. These are all words that an infinite number of friends or loved ones can say to me but the fucked up part of all of it is that I don’t want better, I want him. I know that I will never be able to fully let him go. It’ll never be fully over. And i will always love him. I care about him more than I care about myself. Which is a big part of the problem.

I don’t know where to go from here. Or how to cope. I don’t know what to do. All i know is that I miss him with every fiber of my being. I can’t open my phone gallery because the last photos I took were with him and I can’t look at them. I made a new facebook to run away from it all. Nothing I do makes me feel better. Friends. Work. Gym. Margaritas. Movies. Its all a distraction from missing the person who made me smile ear to ear every morning, and exhale peacefully every night. Even now as I write this, hes walking around the apartment and its as though Im a ghost. He doesnt see me. Acknowledge me. Notice me. And while I used to see him and feel overwhelming love, I now just feel hated. Complete hatred. As though I ruined his life, when all I ever tried to do was make his life better.

So friends, that is my story. I don’t know how it’ll end but I can tell you for sure that I will never be able to hate him or be angry with him. And I will always love him. What comes next for me, I have no idea. I thought writing all of this out would maybe help me have some sort of epiphany but no epiphany came.Sometimes I wish I could have my mind wiped clean of all of this so I wouldnt have to deal with this pain. But I cant. So this is going to suck. For a long while. I’m going to be upset for a long while. I hope at the end of this I can find myself and be a version of myself that has value and pride. I want to be the Bren that loves herself, respects herself, values herself, and is proud of herself. The bren that marched on washington for womens rights in the world needs to march for her rights in her life. More than anything though, I hope he finds himself. I hope he does what he needs to do. I only ever wanted him to be happy. Even if it was at my expense.

[swiperightradioblog-blog]

Swipe Right Episode 1 Transcript

Suggested Host Lead: Dating Apps have been on the rise lately! i wondered what peoples takes on said applications were. Alex is a 22 Year old from Long Island, New York. he had been in a relationship for a while before he was able to dive in to the new era of Tinder, Hinge, Bumble, JSwipe, Coffee Meets Bagel… you know dating apps!

CUT 1: “WE MET AT DIZZYS BUT SHE HAD LIVED ON MY FLOOR SO I HAD ONLY SPOKEN TO HER WHEN WE HAD FLOOR MEETINGS AT THE BEGINNING OF THE YEAR AND THEN SHE ASKED ME TO MEET HER AT DIZZYS AND THEN YOU KNOW..”

HEARING ABOUT HOW HIS PAST RELATIONSHIP WAS LONG LASTING MADE ME WONDER IF PUTTING HIMSELF OUT THERE ON TINDER WAS INTIMIDATING AT ALL

CUT 2:  “THE RUNNING JOKE IS YOU KNOW YOU WANNA MAKE SURE YOURE NEVER DATING A SERIAL KILLER AND DOING THIS KIND OF GIVES YOU MORE OF A FEEL TO WHO THEY ARE AS A PERSON AND YOURE NOT CAUGHT OFF GUARD AS MUCH

UHH NO I DIDNT PUT ENOUGH INCRIMINATING STUFF OUT THERE THAT SOMEONE WOULD WANNA CATFISH ME UMM BUT I CAN SEE HOW OTHER PEOPLE THAT I KNOW PERSONALLY WOULD UHH FALL VICTIM TO THAT”

WITH ALL THAT IS OUT THERE NOW WITH PEOPLE PRETENDING TO BE OTHER PEOPLE ONE MUST ALWAYS BE CAREFUL ABOUT KNOWING WHO THEY ARE TALKING TO ONLINE! HOWEVER BESIDES THAT ALEX FELT LIKE THIS WOULD BE THE RIGHT OUTLET FOR HIS NEWLY SINGLE LIFE

CUT 3: “IT DEFINITELY MAKES YOU MORE NATURAL BECAUSE YOU HAVE MORE PRACTICE AT IT AND MORE EXPERIENCE LIKE MY FRIEND WHO WILL ALSO REMAIN NAMELESS WHO ALSO JUST CAME OUT OF A RELATIONSHIP TOLD ME AT A BAR THE OTHER NIGHT HE SAID “I NEED YOU TO HELP ME TALK TO WOMEN” AND I SAID “WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU'RE ON TINDER ALL THE TIME LIKE YOU HIT UP SO MANY GIRLS ” AN HE SAYS ‘I CAN ONLY TALK ONLINE I CANT TALK TO PEOPLE IN PERSON’ AND I WAS LIKE THATS JUST LIKE FINDING OUT LANCE ARMSTRONG CHEATED YOU KNOW I WAS VERY SHOCKED AT WHAT HAPPENED”

THERE ARE SOME CONCERNS TO THESE DATING APPS OF COURSE

CUT 4: “ITS DIFFERENT THAN TALKING IN PERSON AND FOR SOME PEOPLE THEY CAN ONLY DO ONE OR THE OTHER SO FOR THOSE PEOPLE MAYBE YOU SHOULD WATCH OUT A LITTLE BIT AND WORK ON YOUR ONE ON ONE INTERACTIONS BUT PRIOR TO ME BEING ON THERE I COULD TALK TO ANY PERSON JUST FINE BUT I WOULD COME OFF AS INCREDIBLY AWKWARD ONLINE LIKE SOMEONE YOU’D WANT TO CALL CHRIS HANSEN ON”

ALEX BEGAN HIS JOURNEY IN SEARCH FOR A NEW COMPANION THIS TIME DOING IT DIFFERENTLY… MORE MODERNLY.. BUT WAS HE HESITANT TO DIP HIS TOES IN THE WATER?

CUT 5:” I WASN’T HESITANT AT ALL I WAS WORRIED THAT BECAUSE I HAD BEEN IN A RELATIONSHIP FOR 3 AND A HALF YEARS WHEN ALL THIS STUFF HAPPENED THAT I WAS BEHIND THE EIGHT BALL AND WOULDN’T KNOW WHAT I WAS DOING AND THAT MADE ME NOT HESITANT BUT A LITTLE BIT CONCERNED THAT I WOULD HAVE TO CATCH UP”

HE SPOKE A LITTLE BIT ABOUT HOW HIS SUCCESS STORY WASN'T SUCH A SUCCESS AT FIRST

CUT 6: “SO THE FIRST WEEKEND THAT I BECAME SINGLE OUT OF MY OLD RELATIONSHIP I WENT UP TO COLGATE UNIVERSITY UM TO GO TO WHAT WAS THERE SPRING PARTY WEEKEND WHERE THEY HAVE ALL THE FESTIVALS AND STUFF AND I WAS  STAYING AT THE FOOTBALL FRAT WITH MY BEST FRIEND  AND OTHER THAN HIM AND A FEW OTHERS I DIDN'T REALLY KNOW ANYBODY UP THERE ESPECIALLY WOMEN  AND I DID NOT WANT TO SPEND THIS WEEKEND WITHOUT AT FEMALE COMPANION SO THAT REALLY ENCOURAGED ME TO SWIPE RIGHT ON PRETTY MUCH ANYTHING ALIVE… DIDN'T GET MUCH BACK… HOWEVER MY GAME IMPROVED OVER TIME AND I AM VERY PROUD TO SAY THAT.”

AND IMPROVE IT SURELY DID

CUT 7: “ONE DAY I SWIPED ON THIS GIRL AND I NOTICED THAT HER BIO SAID THAT SHE WAS A BIG NEW YORK RANGERS FAN AND BEING THE SASSY ISLANDERS FAN THAT I AM I DECIDED TO MESSAGE HER “I THINK THE SENATORS ARE GONNA BEAT THE RANGERS IN SIX GAMES” BECAUSE THEY WERE PLAYING IN THE PLAYOFFS AT THAT TIME AND SHES TOLD ME SINCE THAT SHE WAS CONSIDERING NOT ANSWERING ME BECAUSE WHAT I SAID WAS SO INCREDIBLY RUDE AND ANNOYING UHH NEVERTHELESS IT ENDED UP LEADING TO WHATS GONNA BE A SIX MONTH RELATIONSHIP ACTUALLY IN A FEW WEEKS”

MARK IS A 26 YEAR OLD MALE WHOS LUCK WASNT QUITE THE SAME AS ALEX

CUT 8: “UM WELL TINDER FOR ME HONESTLY ITS NOT MY BEST PREFERENCE I’VE USED IT FOR A COUPLE YEARS NOW AND YOU KNOW ITS I FEEL LIKE ITS MOSTLY CURIOSITY FACTOR OF WHO YOURE GONNA MATCH UP WITH. I DONT THINK ANYTHINGS REALLY GENUINE THAT COMES OUT OF IT YOU KNOW IVE MET UP WITH A COUPLE PEOPLE UMM OUT OF IT. ACTUALLY OUT OF A COUPLE HUNDRED… MAYBE TWO HUNDRED AND SIXTY PEOPLE IVE PROBABLY ONLY MET UP WITH ONLY MAYBE ABOUT 5 PEOPLE WHICH IS PRETTY SAD AND EVEN OUT OF THAT I WOULD SAY MAYBE ABOUT 5% OF THAT I EVEN MESSAGE. LIKE I SAID ITS MOSTLY LIKE A CURIOSITY FACTOR UMM DATING SITES FOR OTHER PEOPLE LIKE FOR EXAMPLE MY PARENTS MET ON A DATING SITE AND THEYRE HAPPILY MARRIED AND I HAVE NO COMPLAINTS I HAVE A GREAT STEPDAD NOW. SO I MEAN CLEARLY IT WORKS OUT FOR SOME PEOPLE. I HAVE ALSO SOME FRIENDS WHERE THEY YOU KNOW GOT SOME SUCCESS BUT ITS UH I FEEL LIKE ITS ITS WEIRD ITS VERY IMPERSONAL AT FIRST UM MESSAGING EVEN BECAUSE THE GIRL NEVER IS GOING TO MESSAGE YOU FIRST, IT’S A VERY RARE OCCURRENCE SO FOR A GUY YOU EITHER HAVE TO COME WITH SOME VERY YOU KNOW IMPRESSIVE FIRST PICK UP LINE YOU GOTTA MAKE THEM LAUGH OR EVEN JOKE ABOUT THEM OR ONE OF THEIR PICTURES LIKE YOU HAVE TO SEPARATE YOURSELF FROM OTHER PEOPLE AND YOU KNOW PICK UP LINES DONT WORK ANYMORE ESPECIALLY CORNY ONES.

BESIDES CORNY PICK UP LINES AND PRIMPED OUT PICTURES AND BIOS I WANTED TO KNOW OF SOME NOT SO GREAT EXPERIENCES HE HAD ENTAILED MEETING UP WITH WOMEN FROM TINDER

CUT 9: “UMM I MEAN MAJORITY OF THE CASES WH- ARE THAT WHEN I MEET I WOULD SAY ABOUT 80% OF THE TIME I MEET UP WITH THE GIRL SHE DOESN'T LOOK LIKE THE PICTURES SHE YOU KNOW SHE POSTED. THEY MAKE THEMSELVES LOOK WAY BETTER THAN THEY ACTUALLY SEEM UNFORTUNATELY BUT I FEEL LIKE A LOT OF PEOPLE DO THAT SO THATS KINDA WHY YOU KNOW I KINDA TOOK A PAUSE ON AND HAVEN'T REALLY USED IT IN THE PAST COUPLE MONTHS UMM I THINK ME PERSONALLY I LIKE GOING OUT UMM I FEEL LIKE MY PERSONALITY OUTWEIGHS MY LOOKS SO YOU KNOW THAT HELPS ME, MEETING PEOPLE IN PERSON UMM BUT ALSO ANOTHER PROBLEM WITH TINDER I FEEL LIKE PEOPLE DON’T SETTLE DOWN ANYMORE BECAUSE THEY HAVE INFINITE AMOUNT OF OPTIONS SO THATS THE ONE DOWNFALL BUT YOU KNOW IT IS COOL HAVING YOU KNOW YOU COULD LITERALLY MEET WHOEVER AROUND THE WORLD. BACK IN THE DAY PEOPLE WOULD JUST YOU KNOW WOULD ONLY MEET PEOPLE IN THEIR TOWN AND YOU KNOW THEY WOULD HAVE TO SETTLE BUT NOW WITH ALL THESE DATING SITES IT GIVES YOU INFINITE AMOUNT OF OPTIONS WHICH IS COOL”

JAYSON IS ANOTHER USER OF TINDER AND DATING APPS AND FEELS THAT THERE ARE TWO SIDES TO THIS NEW ERA IN THE MODERN DATING AGE

CUT 10: “IF YOU WERE TO PUT IN INTO A PROS AND CONS LIST OBVIOUSLY PRO WOULD BE LIKE ACTUALLY MEETING SOMEONE THAT YOU KNOW YOU COULD SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH JUST BY CLICKING A BUTTON AND JUST SEEING IF YOUR’E JUST YOU KNOW YOUR’E COMPATIBLE WITH EACH OTHER I GUESS THAT REALLY COOL AND ALL BUT UM WHAT I BELIEVE IS WHAT REALLY THAT MATTERS MOST ABOUT THIS WHOLE CONNECTING THING IS IF YOU YOU HAVE SOMETHING THAT LITERALLY GIVES YOU REASON TO MAKE IT SOMETHING”

HE MENTIONS HOW USING THESE APPLICATIONS ARE A WAY FOR PEOPLE TO FIND THEIR STATISTIC AND WHERE THEY FIT IN ON THE DATING SPECTRUM

CUT 11: “UH I HAVE AND I MATCHED WITH A GOOD AMOUNT UMM I NEVER REALLY USED IT AS SOMETHING TO MEET UP WITH PEOPLE WITH I JUST THOUGHT IT WAS JUST FUN AND GAMES TO KNOW LIKE WHO YOU COULD BE MATCHED WITH AND YOU C- ALSO WHAT PEOPLE WOULD DO IS LIKE OH WELL I PERSONALLY BELIEVE THAT OTHER PEOPLE WOULD DO IS UM THEY WOULD USE IT AS LIKE A A COMPARISON CONTEST BETWEEN THEMSELVES AND THE PEOPLE THAT THEY MATH THEMSELVES WITH JUST TO SEE LIKE  WHO IS THE ATTRACTIVE LEVEL TYPE OF PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE KNOW FOR A FACT IF YOU WERE GONNA GO INTO A SOCIAL SETTING THAT YOU WOULD BE CONNECTED WITH THEM EASILY. THINK ABOUT IT WHEN YOUR’E USING THESE KIND OF SOCIAL MEDIA TYPE OF CONNECTION SITES ITS ITS JUST AN UNLIMITED AMOUNT OF PEOPLE AROUND YOU I MEAN YOU MEET THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE EVERY DAY WHEN YOUR’E WALKING AROUND AND LIKE OBVIOUSLY WE DON’T HAVE THAT KIND OF TIME OF DAY TO LIKE MEET EVERY SINGLE PERSON AND LIKE GET A WHOLE BACKGROUND HISTORY OF THEM BEFORE YOU LIKE YOU I MEAN OBVIOUSLY LIKE  ATTRACTIVENESS IS THE FIRST CONNECTION LIKE INSTANTLY WHEN YOU SEE A PICTURE OF SOMEONE THAT LIKE YOU KNOW IS SOMEONE THAT YOU WOULD BE LIKE OH OKAY I COULD PICTURE MYSELF BEING WITH THIS PERSON FOR A BIT LIKE THIS THIS IS SOMETHING THAT WOULD UMM I WOULDNT MIND BUT THEN AGAIN LIKE WHATS BEHIND THAT PERSON LIKE WERE GOING AFTER AN AVATAR RATHER THAN LIKE A PERSON”

NOT EVERYONE HAS THE SAME OPINION AS ALEX FROM OUR SUCCESS STORY JAYSON FEELS AS THOUGH MOST DATING APPLICATIONS ARE MORE FOR SEXUALIZATION

CUT 12: “UM I MEAN THERE ARE A FEW SOCIAL MEDIA SITES THAT GIVE YOU A LITTLE MORE PREFERENCE AND LIKE THERES THERES ALSO UH CERTAIN BOUNDARIES THAT AND THEY ALSO HAVE LIKE AN ALGORITHMIC FORMULA THAT COULD UMM GIVE YOU A BETTER MATCH TYPE OF PERSON THROUGH YOUR FIRST SEARCH PREFERENCES LIKE AND WITH THIS TINDER THING ITS JUST UMM WOULD I MEET THEM RIGHT NOW OR WOULD I EVEN BOTHER TO GIVE THEM THE TIME OF DAY AND ITS JUST AN INSTANT SECOND IT TAKES ONE SWIPE TO SEE WHETHER OR NOT YOU'RE GONNA LIKE SOMEONE AND THATS KINDA LIKE THE MESSED UP PART OF THIS WHOLE THING”

THERE ARE SO MANY THOUGHTS OUT THERE ON WHAT DATING APPLICATIONS AND WEBSITES HAVE BEEN DOING TO THE DATING SCENE IN THE MODERN AGE. FOR SOME THEY HAVE FOUND LOVE AND LONGTERM RELATIONSHIPS ON TINDER AND OTHER APPS, HOWEVER, FOR OTHERS THEY USE IT AS A WAY TO PICK UP CHICKS OR GUYS FOR A ONE NIGHT FLING… HEY I EVEN OVERHEARD SOMEONE SAY THEY USE TINDER TO GET FREE DINNER!